Why is it that I have this deep feeling as if I shouldn't get my drivers liscense like even at the dmv I just?

cry and cry like deep down inside I know I shouldn't get it like for real for real one my intuition tells me not to two I know for a fact that Im not gonna p three like I wasn't suppose to why do you think that is? just curious REAL answers please thank you so much =) just wondering why like I have this thing where my subconscious is always doing something that I don't really understand and I want to consciously understand if that makes sense! again thanks for your REAL answers =)